i wouldn’t do this if things weren’t truly bad, and they are. i am afraid and i am ashamed.
i have been living with my rapist.
my landlord has repeatedly, almost daily, coerced me and forced me into having sex with him. you can imagine how hard it is to say no to him. he lives on property and he has no qualms about telling his employees about my “promiscuity” and has even “jokingly” offered to have a threesome with one of his workers and me, with me standing right in the room. he’s pulled me by my wrists into his truck before. he’s come to my house at odd hours in the night, begging, then forcing himself on to me. i am afraid to report this to anyone. he could make up a bogus late payment and use it as grounds for eviction in retaliation, i’ve seen him do it to a neighbor after she called the city’s code enforcement office to report her substandard housing.
ive just realized that i am pregnant. i do not want this. i’d rather die than have this. i cannot in good conscience bring a baby into the world and I can’t even take care of myself yet. i already work two jobs and go to school full time. i am lucky enough to have a planned parenthood in my city, the only one in my conservative state. i don’t have health insurance. PP prices the abortion pill at a little less than $1000.
i CANT live with a physical reminder of being humiliated. please please, if you can help me, my cashapp is $arthoetchalla. otherwise, please spread the word about this post and PLEASE reblog!! I’m not beyond begging anymore, I am terrified and alone and afraid….
You notice how Trump demolished the food safety laws and now, in the past month, we haven’t been able to eat lettuce, eggs, Tyson chicken, and watermelon because there are huge bacteria outbreaks?
There are really people going, “So take it up with the companies, don’t expect the government to protect you.”
1) That’s the government’s job. The exact purpose of having a government.
2) That is reactive. Meaning people have to needlessly get sick and die in order for change to happen, instead of just having common sense guidelines in place for prevention of disease spread.
3) It’s REALLY hard to make multi-billion dollar corporations change their ways, without some legal backing.
im making another post because my other post needs an update and it’s extremely slow.
warning for guns, death, violence, and animal abuse.
i am 21, i live with my 10 year old sister and mother. a couple months ago, our neighbors shot into my bedroom almost at point blank range. there are 3 bullet holes in my room, two of which are directly next to my bed. i was grazed by a bullet on the arm.
even a few days ago, there was a shooting in broad daylight, and two bullets entered our living room again. we were lucky enough to be away from home, but a 6 year old boy was shot and killed less than 30 ft away from our apartment. three weeks ago, a man was found shot dead in the neighboring apartment, literally adjacent to my living room. he was there for days and at one point i could smell the body from my couch, but at the time i had no idea what it was. even before then, 6 months ago, my windows were shot at and the glass broke. there is an overwhelming amount of gun violence where we live because of drug and gang activity of my neighbors, which brings everything right to our doorstep. most of our other neighbors have moved out because of that very reason, we are one of the last ones left. i cannot express how critical our situation is. we are risking our lives everyday to live here.
i am riddled with anxiety every day. i live everyday wondering if today is the day it happens again. my sister won’t even sleep in our room because she’s afraid of being shot again. when she hears loud noises, she drops to the ground and covers her head. no child should have to live like this and it makes me cry to even think about it. she’s 10 and she’s seen more pain already than anyone should see in a lifetime. imagine living every single day wondering if you’ll be shot in your bed, or taking a shower, or watching tv.
our neighbors are blatant criminals, they don’t give a fuck if we live or die. they have dog fights in our front yard (video) they’ve harassed my mom over calling the police, and we feel intimidated by them. it’s hard to call the police when the police never arrest them and retaliation is a very real thing.
on top of that, our apartment is shitty and I’d rather not go into details, but we are missing basic things like a working shower and air conditioning. we have begged our landlord to fix these things for an entire year and we’ve gotten nowhere. our ceiling caved in in august of last year and it still hasn’t been fixed. no one has even come to patch up the multiple bullet holes in the apartment, despite us asking several times over and over.
I have a job, but my mom’s credit and rental history is extremely sketchy and we always have to prepay our rent or have a huge deposit in order for anyone to rent to us. but most times, they won’t even accept our application, period. and on top of that, my mom does independent work and although she makes enough to support us, it’s not enough to save the literal thousands of dollars we need to move, and rental companies usually don’t want to acknowledge the income that she makes because she has no check stubs. and every time we amass a little bit in savings, something happens that wipes it all out. and we still have to pay rent to live like this.
we’re just feeling very stuck and helpless right now, it seems like there is no way out for us no matter what we do. it’s going to take an enormous amount of money to get us out of here.
i have video evidence for those who’d like to see it, and video of the dog fight that happened in our front yard. (tw for animal abuse, but blood isn’t clearly visible) it may be hard to watch for some people. i am not lying or trying to pull a scam. i am just doing everything in my power to get my family out of this fucking piece of shit of an apartment.
if you can help, it’d be much appreciated and I’d be forever grateful. if you can’t help with money, any reblog or share is equally as appreciated. thank you. so much.
Damn most of y'all really did stop talking/caring about what he said in less than 48 hours huh?
Kpop fans hate black people there’s no two ways about it
And like that statement isn’t an overreaction to be quite fucking honest. When idols do blackface, y'all jump and say it’s just a cosplay. When they say the n word, y'all jump and say they meant to say 네가 or 니가 (how this even happens I don’t know when they have absolutely no relation to or sound close to the word) or y'all completely ignore it and say everyone should be able to say it. When they mock us and our culture on national or internationally televised tv, y'all laugh along with them and say it was just a joke. When they attempt to “copy” our hair styles and we say it’s not right, y'all say “stop overreacting it’s just hair”. But oh when they copy our mannerisms, our dances, our fashion, and even our style of music, y'all act like kpop idols reinvented the whole! fucking! wheel! You guys do your best along with idols to constantly remind us we’re not welcome here. Our culture is but black folks in general are truly not welcome in this fandom. You guys make it more and more clear everyday. And honestly having to constantly defend my existence, as a black woman and as a black fan, in an already toxic community and world becomes more and more draining each time you try to tell us to sit down and shut up. Black fans deserve so much better than this because without us kpop music and pop music in general wouldn’t even exist. It’s time some of you clowns pulled your heads out of your asses and realized that.
72 hours later and still nothing from the vast majority of nonblack kpop fans…..
Anti-blackness is a disease most of the world suffers from but I’m currently addressing kpop fans. Unfortunately, fans don’t do their research, otherwise they will see that many black-inspired genres give you the precious kpop that you worship TODAY. These beats, rhythms, syncopations, even outright sampling has origins from black people. You’re just ingesting it in a pre-packaged Korean frame. Every artist deserves their shine for their hard work but stop ignoring the hard work that comes before them.
Here’s a mini history lesson on genres…
Do better.
Be better.
Don’t be trash and defend your faves out of loyalty or try to justify their mistake, teach them to be better as well. They’re human and allowed to make them.
Don’t strive for global notoriety and shame your fan base for things that they can’t change, their race and their appearance. It’s downright abysmal of you.
Don’t accept racism because people have been racist towards you. That’s lame and played out.
Be a positive space for change by growing to be more conscious and knowledgeable.
You’ll surprise yourself with how much you appreciate blackness after research. I hope you understand it more but you will need to RESPECT it. Because without it… your beloved KPop wouldn’t sound the way it does…
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